Mon, 21 Feb 2011 13:03:14 +0000
For about a week now, my son has been asking questions. We have talked to him his whole life about salvation. But we are between pastors and he visited his grandmother's church last week. He came home and said that he was starting to understand the salvation thing. He said(his words here) that before there had been a barrier, and that it was starting to break through. We had some good discussions, and at one point I asked if he was ready, and he said that he didnt think that it was far away. I sent a prayer request to my cousin Lindsay, a true believer, and she also prayed for him along with myself and my husband. Yesterday, we returned to his grandmother's church. They had a visiting minister who spoke of salvation and confession. At the end of the sermon, I saw my son gripping the bench and praying. He looked up and said that he had asked Jesus in his heart and thought he had been saved. His eyes were so different. We took him up front, after he said that his heart had felt funny, and that now he was so happy. He made the good confession. He cried and I cried, and I believe with all my heart he was genuine. As we were riding to grandma's house, I told him to make sure he had repented of his sins. He prayed, and did so with faith. He was SO happy. His grandma had told him that what he needed to do was to ask Jesus in his heart. But I believe he had been wanting to make the decision all week, and when she told him to, he thought that was it. If you could have seen his eyes! Last night, I read with him from Romans about confession and salvation, also stressing that he needs to be baptised soon, which he knows. I told him I wanted to make sure we had all bases covered. I asked him did he know he was a sinner, and without missing a beat, he said that yes, we were born sinners. I asked him if he had repented of his sin, and he said yes, awhile ago in the car. I asked him if he believed Jesus was who he said He was, and led him in a prayer. He dedicated his life to Christ/ My son understood that Jesus died for our sins. He understands that Jesus is the Son of God, and did not question. He repented of his sin. And during that Church service yesterday, he understood more of his decision than the simple asking of Jesus in his heart. I believe that those were the words he thought he had to say to cement a decision that he made, and that God knew he was making yesterday morning in church. The act of surrender and acceptance meant more to him, and I think, to Christ, than simple words. He believed. And right before I closed his door last night, I asked him, did you commit your life to Christ? And without even having to think, he said yes,it(my life) isnt mine anymore. I believe he understood that in Church when he asked Jesus into his heart.
Was this just a case of me making things more complicated when it was, and is so simple? He meant it in Church, and he meant it last night, and my boy is saved. I know that there is more to it than asking Jesus into your heart, but I think Connor surrendered, and I think God touched his heart. What a day.
